May 11, 2013

Well… Everyone has been telling me that starting a blog was the best thing they ever did.  They tell me that they were able to help others, but even more themselves by writing a blog and expressing their feelings in writing.  I shrugged off the idea for some time now.  But, here I am.  I am not a great writer, perhaps I will get better with time.  For now I wish to remain anonymous.  Perhaps that will change with time as I know if has for so many others. For now, I am doing this for me.  To document my journey.  To gain a better understanding of myself.

I am a 37 year old mother of three children.  They are 11, 8 and 4.  This is not my first time on an Optifast-type product.  In 2009/2010 I lost 80+ pounds on a similar program.  There are many things that went wrong with keeping the weight off that I will talk about later.

For now, let me say that I am on my 17th day of full compliance to FF (full fast).  I have 5 products per day consisting of shakes, soups and bars.  In the past 17 days I have not cheated once.  This is the longest I have been able to make it in a long time.  I tried probably 5 or 6 times to do FF, and failed miserably after about a week.  I feel like this time is different.  This time, I can go the whole way.  I can tell I’m in Ketosis now.  I can feel my hunger leaving, and my energy picking up.

In the past 17 days I have lost 11.3 pounds, 14.4 total (I cheated the first week).  I was hoping for more, but I know this is a good loss.  The past few days my weight loss has been flat, and this is a dangerous time for me.  I don’t want to get discouraged and give up.  I need to remain strong, because I KNOW that if I stick to the fast the weight will come off.  It’s simple math, it has to!